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This is the third time I’ve rewritten this book. The first draft was too short, just a free write of my
thoughts jammed onto the pages. The second draft was more polished, and I thought it had
potential, but the words didn’t feel like me. That’s when I realized I was following these unwritten
rules that I’d been applying to everything I did in life.
It’s something I’ve always done—following these invisible rules that I believed would provide
structure. My overarching thought was always: rules bring order, and without them, there’s only
chaos. That’s what I believed for a long time. But that belief also kept me trapped inside a rigid way
of living, unable to embrace the freedom I truly wanted. When I finally became aware of it, that
awareness broke me apart, and I discovered a new word: disillusionment.
Disillusionment is the feeling of disappointment when something we believed in or hoped for turns
out to be flawed or false. It forces us to confront the gap between our expectations and reality—a
gap that often goes unspoken until we’re face-to-face with it.
Adulthood doesn’t always turn out the way we expected. We start by hitting the milestones laid out
for us until we’re inevitably cut loose to plan our own path and make our own decisions. When that
time comes, we end up going in a million different directions, enrolling in the class that only
experience can teach.
When we were younger, we imagined adulthood would come with freedom, success, and the
satisfaction of having it all together. That’s what they told us. Every year in school, one of my
teachers would say, “You need to get good grades so you can get into a good college and have a
good job.” But no one ever mentions the unforeseen detours and challenges—the moments that
leave you questioning whether you’re on the right track or if you missed the memo everyone else
seems to have.

I remember my first job interview, fresh out of college. It was everything I’d been working
toward—a stepping stone into the adult world I’d been told was waiting for me. I had two degrees,
work experience, and my hopes pinned on the idea that once I walked through that virtual door, I’d
be well on my way to success. But the reality of that moment hit harder than I expected. The job,
which I thought would be my ticket to the future I had imagined, turned out to be something else
entirely.
A few days before the interview, I’d done my research, practiced, and prepared, just like I was
supposed to. “Always prepare for interviews. Have questions ready. Work on your elevator pitch.”
To me, this was common knowledge, drilled into us throughout college.
Five minutes before the video call, I sat anxiously in front of the screen, telling myself, You’ve got
this, don’t be nervous. I was nervous—but I was ready. The call started off great. I had answers to
every common question.
“Tell us about yourself.” Crushed it.
“Why do you want to work here?” Easy.
“Tell me about a time you’ve faced adversity in the workplace.” I could do this in my sleep.
“Can you explain your lack of banking experience?” Uh…
“I see a gap on your resume, can you explain why?” Well…
“Why should we hire you?” Oh no.
Long story short, the interview didn’t go as planned. I noticed something that threw me off balance.
As I confidently answered the earlier questions, I could see the interviewer growing visibly irritated.
But when the tougher questions came, the ones I wasn’t as prepared for, he seemed almost satisfied.
It hit me then—he was never interested in hiring me. No matter how prepared I was, I was walking
into a situation I hadn’t been taught to expect.

That day, I learned a few things: the world prepares us for success on a general scale but doesn’t
account for biases, discrimination, or other real obstacles that can stand in our way—even when we
do the work.
That was my first taste of disillusionment—the realization that the adult world I had imagined wasn’t
quite what I’d been sold. And that was just the beginning. As I navigated my twenties, I quickly
discovered that adulthood is less about having all the answers and more about learning to live with
the questions. The moments we thought would define us—landing the dream job, finding love,
building a life—rarely go as planned. Instead, we’re left grappling with uncomfortable truths about
self-worth, success, relationships, and everything in between.
This book is my reflection on those truths, the lessons I’ve learned the hard way, and the ones I’m
still learning. You’ll notice that throughout the book, there are bolded solutions—real, actionable
steps that helped me move forward. These bold moments are there to help guide you through your
own journey, offering a way forward when life’s uncertainties feel overwhelming.
It’s not a guidebook or a set of solutions. It’s a mirror—an honest look at the messy, painful reality
of what it means to grow up and find yourself in a world that’s constantly shifting. They’re not just
moments that happened to me; they’re reflections of experiences many of us share but rarely talk
about. Because let’s face it: growing up is hard, and adulthood doesn’t come with a manual though
most of us wish it did. But maybe, by sharing these moments with you, we can find some comfort in
knowing we’re not alone in the struggle.
Through my journey of growth, I’ve come to realize this: Adulthood isn’t about reaching a
destination. It’s about adapting, evolving, and having the courage to face the uncomfortable truths
that life throws at us.

As you journey through this book, you will find more than just stories. Each chapter includes
solutions, acting as callouts to highlight practical advice you can apply to your own life. At the end of
every section, you will encounter chapter summaries and reflection questions, designed to encourage
deeper thinking and personal growth. These reflection questions will also appear in a detailed
appendix at the end of the book, where you can review them all in one place for further
contemplation. You’ll find inspirational quotes sprinkled throughout to keep you motivated, and
actionable call-to-actions that invite you to take real steps toward change. Lastly, we’ve included a
sample of a personal action plan, giving you the tools to shape your own path forward using the
insights you’ve gained.
As you turn the page, remember that this is a space where vulnerability is embraced, and perfection
is not the goal. It’s about confronting the realities of growing up and learning to embrace the
messiness that comes with it.